word vomit

if there's one thing that ive learned from the movie "mean girls" its the "word vomit"... its just like vomit.. you cant keep it in, because its going to come out... and its foul stench just leaves you gagging... instead of food or beer though, its words...

this afternoon, i was cleaning our room when i noticed my sister's journal on the floor. since its really not in my nature to snoop and read other people's journals (especially the ones in a notebook), i threw it back to her bed.. unfortunately, the pages opened to the part where i saw my name written in all caps and underlined.. naturally, curiousity got the best of me and i felt i had to look.. so i read her journal.. and that was the biggest mistake of the day..

she called me all sorts of names, and trust me, these are the ones you most definitely dont want to hear.. she enumerated all my exes and passed judgement on them.. she called them all sorts of names from tambay to junkie to what else...and it became apparent from her rantings that she went through my stuff.. stuff as in letters, notes, pictures, gits, souvenirs, receipts, etc.. and all these were neatly stored and filed in my "treasure box" at the most secret spot i could find in our room.. i guess its not so secret after all...

i am sooo freaking mad at her now... you would think, that by reading through this blog, this would be an elder sis or someone who can easily bully me... but heck!! im the eldest sis and i am not easily bullied.. this sly, snoop and tattler is all but a sophomore highskul student..

her audacity to reach into my stuff and read everything and her ignorance on such trivial issues angers me even more...

so what if she wrote all those stuff out of observation..?? i wouldnt mind.. but she is going way overboard by flipping through my box to be a spectator of my life...

it would be perfectly understandable if whatever she wrote in there was constructive, or something that she could learn from... but all the word vomit i could ever use in a month, she wrote in 4 short pages of a journal.. i am not paranoid but i know that she is out to get me...

if she wrote all those stuff out of anger at me or if it was provoked, i wouldnt mind the namecalling.. but why does she have to include other people who managed to make me blissfully happy in the short time that were together, more than what she ever did for me..??

if she only wanted to look out for me and my best interests, was that the perfect way to do that? no!! she could have talked to daphne about it and daphne will definitely talk to me.. (were not talking man gud ni debra.. tagsa ra..)

i have always said to her that there is nothing she can say about me that will ever hurt me.. but writing all those junk in her journal, unprovoked, uncalled for, about the people that i care about, is just plain mean, so not cool....

i am thinking pa, about how to wreak havoc in her own little personal bubble.. because i know this for a fact... she is an insecure, sadist twerp who relishes seeing other people at their lowest...

bantay lng ka..

Comments

[JOYciLiCiOuS]

Hey gal...

First of all, I read your blog and mind me, what your 'lil' sis did surely is provoking enough not to mention so judgemental and way out of line - so what your reactions towards her actions is surely understandable. But hey, anger won't do you any good. As what the saying goes, "No one could make you feel bad about yourself without your consent."
Lil sis she is and that makes her an ignorant party on other people's welfare and own life. She sure has a lot of opinions but it's just till there... opinions... She never had experiences like you do. Don't let her get yah. She'll eventually come around oneday. Since your not talking and all, maybe she needs your attention and her only way to catch that is through that 'burn-book' of hers.
That's just life girl, no matter how we live it, we can't help other people from meddling with our own affairs and people always have a lot to say about something. We just can't please everybody!

I miss you girl... Your a strong person and i think you know better than what your 'lil' sis do. A childish act if you ask me.

and oops, since she knows that she won't have or get any reactions from you if she just namecalls you alone, she surely got your attention now that she included other people on the hotseat! Don't let her get yah girl. Just a childish and inmature ploy from someone who have nothing better to do with their own lives! Again, You know better!